The Difference - Indian Muslim vs Paki Muslim

Raging fires of "Communal Violence", spurted and inflated by few Pakistanis (I'll use Pakistanis because earlier this version was from Islam, which I believe is not Islam, but Pakistan), I think is slowly fading away. The common Muslim of India today is unable to shrug off the belief that he/she is now tainted by a few bunch of Pakistanis. I have several Muslim friends and I can tell you how much they hate Pakistanis. I am really happy that my country, India, was not made devoid of Muslims. Without our Multi-Cultural identity, we would have fallen into the category of Israel, which I believe is a classic example of ethnic cleansing.
Now my Govt. of India is shaking hands with Israelis, it really makes me think, why? Anyhow, in India we have far superior tolerance. We have taken shocks and absorbed mighty blows and still stood strong and united. Be it Hindu, Muslim, Sikh or Christian, first and foremost, we are Indians and India is our motherland. She cares and provides us, thus, it is the duty of every Indian to protect her.
A slap on the face of Pakistanis - I went through a news report in which Imams of Mumbai, refused burials for the terrorists who attacked Mumbai. If I could just touch the feet of these people I would be grateful. They have understood, how much harm it is doing to Islam in India which is far more liberal and forward looking. We do not have Shia, Sunni, Ahmedi clashes because Indian Islam is a vibrant and tolerant society. Muslims get to the highest degrees of education in Inida because their inclination is towards making their generation more progressive. I heard a poop called "Zaid Hamid" on Pakistani Television. In his words, "Muslims girls in India are forced to marry Hindus! They are being oppressed...". Man what a short-sighted fool from Brass-Tacks. No wonder Pakistanis are living under their inferiority complex.
To answer this muslim girls marrying Hindus... Mr. Zaid Hamid, quote me - "In India, all citizens are allowed to marry, regardless of Religion". Muslim boys can marry Hindu girls and vice versa. This goes true for Sikhs and Christians also. Ours is a multi-cultural society and we don't give a shit to what an idiot like "Zaid Hamid" speaks. The befitting answer to the over-gloated fool "Zaid" was given out by an Indian Muslim. You should see the reply and how it was provided.
Unfortunately, Pakistan is nearing its end. Its economy is in total collapse, the people are fighting each other and the fighting is spilling over to India. I believe, the Indian Army, comprising of people from all races and religions, will soon crush out this inborn infidels inside Islam - Pakistan.
Pakistanis are bigger infidels because they have dirtied the Islam and also showed the Islamic world that they are big liers. What they did in Bangladesh in 1971 is evidence to it. They murdered, raped and looted Muslims. Bangladesh became a free state in 1971 owing to this great tragedy.
Pakistan fall is not good news for India as there will be more violence as these Pakistanis have nothing to live on. A mere dollar and a bread thrown at these dogs will enable them to gnaw and bite. They will take up arms because of hunger and total despair in economic collapse. But a weaker divided Pakistan will be easier for India to smash and burn. A greater vigil at borders will ensure that these Pakistani bastards remain at bay and kill each other.
Pakistanis are a shame on Islam. They have dirtied the word Muslim. They are corrupt and total fools driven by their feudal lords. In India, muslims are progressive and now are showing how they can disband the fools who try to attack India. Islam in India is the true Islam. They live peacefully and in co-operation, which is now shown in their vibrant colors. Pakistan despair in creating trouble in India has led them to their own collapse and destruction.
Soon US, UK and Multi-Ethnic, Multi-Cultural India will attack and destroy Pakistan into pieces, on which they can fight amongst themselves and kill each other.

How to survive in Long Term?

I am a management student of Vinod Gupta School of Management, Indian Institute of Technology, Kharagpur, India. Current economic crisis had made me think almost a thousand times. All theories moving around in the market also makes me more confused of why we students are affected so badly. With jobs in the market drying out has crippled the scenario even more. Even I was left not immune to this crisis even after having fantastic Work and Academic record. With I losing my job it came as a shock to me.

So sub-prime crisis has really become a buzz-word nowadays. We don't see it much in India, as banks here, are far more regulated than in United States. So why India and Indian jobs are feeling the pinch? The reason is the decline in demand in United States for products and services shipped out of India. India has an exports of nearly 24.1% of its GDP towards United States. This is quite a huge percentage. But still India is holding out and keeping things a little more calm. The problems here are not unprecedented, but the control of liquidity regime has ensured that nothing goes wrong at such drastic times.

Thus, I should comment more on liquidity. Liquidity in raw terms is the amount of money available in the market for transactions. It becomes important when people borrow money. People and organizations borrow money to pay off the transactions like, paying for mortgages/loans or paying for services. Thus, banks play an important part. They are both lenders and borrowers. If they borrow more than they can pay off, liquidity is out of the market. The recession begins here. Somehow, the onus also lies in the hands of people apart from these investment bankers having almost out of the world ideas.

Bad news is for the small/medium enterprises. These firms are facing the wrath as they borrow money out of the lenders to pay off for production, services and pays. If the lenders have no liquidity, then where do these people go? The answer is difficult but not impossible. What I propose here is a long term view rather than having a myopic, small term view to the problem.

What should these firms do? I provide the following peoposition which can be followed over a period of 5 years, just as the 5 year plans of Govt. of India.

1. Competitive market is good but not always in favor. Why I say this is that is keeps pushing the necessary evil down - Costs. A few years back, costs were a phenomenon in themselves. Everyone wanted to cut down costs. They reduce production costs and let the final output to the customers. In simple maths. If I am selling an apple for Rs.5 and earning Rs.1 as profit, can I reduce costs to Rs.2 and make sure I sell at Rs.2.5 and make a profit of Rs.0.50. This way I could sell more because immediately the demand will go up and people will buy at lower costs. But at the same time I earn a lower profit of Rs.0.50. I further percolate this into numbers. If I sold 10 apples I was earning Rs.10 in profits earlier. And after the cost reduction if I sell at Rs.2.50, some 30 apples, I get Rs.15 in profits. This is a gamble that most manufacturers play. Market research comes in handy when you have to deal with the demand in the market. But that too is not fool proof.
2. Demand is driven by many factors which are complex and not easily understood. Simplest of the explanation is that, how much buying power do the people have and how much they want to buy? If they want to buy only 10 apples and not 30, the situation becomes even worse for the manufacturer. He now sells out say 15 apples at profit of Rs.7.50, Rs.2.50 less from previous. This induces job losses and problems of lesser profits. In a horde of reducing costs all that happens is a spiralling profit problem. The same is true for services.
3. So what should the manufacturer do? I believe cost-cutting is not a bad idea, but the price cutting certainly is. Due to competitive pressures manufacturers and service providers fall for this trap. Firms doing this are certainly myopic. They are driven by short term goals.

Why hue and cry in making more profits? It is evil and destroys the society fabric. Utterly wrong and misinterprated. Perhaps, firms making more profits should sustain their production. And carefully increasing production and jobs simultaneously. So where do these profit go now. Everyone knows that inflation blows away enough earned. Firms resort to investment into financial tools to earn enough to keep cash at same or a level more. This way accummulated money can sustain the firm.

I shall write more about how these enterprises can sustain even more.

Respecting Women - Why is it important for societies?

I write this article on a simple note. Societies which do not respect their women, will never develop or move forward in any form. In the following analysis, I shall clearly bring out historical and current scenario showing some societies which have developed far faster than others. Today we live in a world which is stricken by violence and violence primarily is targeted against women. This is global phenomenon which is localizing into societies which are slowly indulging into self destruction.

Hindu Societies – Rise, fall and rise…

Hindus were historically very renowned for some of the most influential women and women who spearheaded the society’s main core. Politically, scientifically and socially, women proved themselves in all arenas. Slowly Hindu society fell into a grip of unwanted conservativeness. Right up to late 20th century and even sometimes now, it is still showing up. But surely now, this is dying. Women like Indira Gandhi, Kalpana Chawla and many more have inspired India time and again. Hindu societies are reviving again and women are given back their place in society. The primary reason for free fall of Hindu societies was the dowry system. It has eaten away the basic fabric of Hindu society. Women are seen as objects and not humans. It is highly unlikely in Hindus to think that, because we have several goddesses. Right from the historical times, Hindus have worshipped goddesses and even call this earth as our mother. But women in Hindu societies are still better off when it comes to education and access to facilities. Reason is simple, Hindus are a liberal society. Poverty may drive a family not sending off their girls to schools but it is true for their boys also. So now the phenomenon is seen not as only for girls, which was a problem earlier. Rapid urbanization has led Indian girls into cities and working alongside men. This has its own problems, but it exists in all societies, and Indians are managing it. So the very fabric is being re-established, and the Hindu society is bringing its respect for their women folk back.

Christian – Fall and Rise

I have always appreciated the Christians. They are a progressive society. But it was not always so. At dawn of Christianity, things were not good. Women were persecuted as witches and the society remained backwards for a long period of time. But renaissance changed it all. Protestant thinking helped Christian societies towards prosperity and women were an equal part in it. Now countries like UK, France Germany, USA, Russia and others are considered the most advanced nations. The women have equal rights and have voice in the governance.

Islamic Societies – Divided

One part of Islamic world is progressive and other remains in absolute disarray. Countries like Iraq, Iran and the Turkey have shown how they are liberal. Women have right to vote. Iraq, especially under Saddam was the most advanced. They had girls into schools and every girl was given equal treatment. After the US war on Iraq, probably it will take a little more time for Iraqis to re-gather themselves. Iran is equally liberal, no matter how much west sees it as, but still women have equal rights. Turkey is the most advanced Islamic nation. Economically prosperous and women have respect. But what worries in Islamic world is the hatred against women. Primarily, it has nothing to do with religion. It is a fundamental societal problem. Men have very less respect for women. Counter to it, even in Hindu and Christian societies, women are oppressed. But the democratic views of these societies make sure that oppression comes out in open and the culprits are punished. However, the problem lies in the societies which are unlikely made out of the Wahabis and similar faiths. They are particularly oppressive towards women and publicly endorse such activities.

Why so much talk about women empowerment?

The answer is simple. A woman gives birth to a child. She is the first teacher for the child. She is his/her first mentor. Thus, it is highly important that the woman is empowered, educated and also seen highly in a society. Enabling girls in society ensures that the unwanted elements of societies will not get their recruits from the youth, who will be very much nurtured and brought up by their mothers. If the women are rendered powerless, it pushes the society into chaos. The unwanted elements in society like gangs of criminals, terrorists and rogue politicians find it easy to brainwash these youth. Altogether, they benefit because they get easy recruits. Women are at the center of the family. Actually, in Hindu societies women are considered the family and a family is considered incomplete without a mother. Constant harassment of women in today’s world has ensured that terrorism will never end. I speak rather differently, but I believe if the root cause of this problem is handled now, probably in coming years, terrorism will slowly be routed out.

A simple belief is that if more and more women in backward societies are provided with education, like it is being done in India, the lesser there will be chance of violence in the society. India is looking at golden age now. With 20 years from now, our society will be a shining jewel of secular thinking and democratic way of life through women empowerment.

I shall write more…

The Love and Hate Relationship

My love and hate relationship with Aricent grows even more. Aricent came up as a savior in these troubled times. They provided me with a pre-placement offer, which is in rarity nowadays. This is year 2008, the great economic crunch causing troubled waters even in the most withstanding organizations. All firms have gone into no hiring or firing mode. It spells doom, it certainly does for us management students, who once were so much sought after. Slowly but surely spark has gone out. The flame burning is slowly dimming out, but I know it will not vanish. Markets are going to come back. It is a temporary phase. But this temporary phase is causing ripples which seem like cyclonic tides. But something has happened with me which is surely amazing. I lived to fight another day. The life was handed out to me by Aricent.

May 12th 2008 – This is the day on which I joined Aricent. First impression about the firm by the looks of its infrastructure was a feeling of awe. They have some of the best buildings in Gurgaon. As I entered the building on Plot-17, Electronic city, I was convinced of a great 6 month long internship with this firm. We were asked to wait in the reception and later we met our mentors. Later in the day I was the first one to be allocated a project with Mr. Manohar. It was a dream come true. Day 1 and I get a project, well that is something. As the first week went by I was convinced of the level of professionalism in the firm. But as the second, third and fourth week unfolded I was shrouded with failures in my project. One after another, they kept on coming. It was not a pretty sight for me. In these times, however, I used to give out long sighs and continue with my work. It was imminent from my attitude that I was in crunch. Daily jobs made me sick. But luckily I have a innate ability to hang on. That is what I am good at and I applied it to my success. Slowly people in the organization started appreciating my work. This was the beginning of the love and hate.

The surviving friends – Apart from my colleagues from VGSOM, I met some very interesting people inside Aricent. The most important of these people were, Ram, Rohit, Deepak and Vidit. Ram is going to be my colleague and Rohit, Deepak and Vidit are from the engineering teams. I met them by coincidence and they became my best buddies. Later point of my work had me interact with some of the most optimistic people I have ever seen, Shiba, Manandeep, Malathi (in Chennai) and Subbu (also from Chennai). I also met some of the most interesting people like Akash from the Administration who handles the Bus services in Aricent. All these people made a big extended family for me. They are excellent people in their work and they correlate their work with keeping good relationships with others. I learnt a lot from them. However, the people from whom I learnt most were Sudhir (my boss), Rakesh (my boss, with whom I met only once) and Prakash (my senior from college). All of them provided me different dimensions of what people and relationships mean. I am so overflowed with joy that I might not have named all you guys.

The farewell and the continuance – We were given a grand farewell by our mentors and seniors. It was so heart touching and it meant a lot to me. I left with a heavy heart. But this was soon about to change. We left on November 7th 2008. I was uncertain whether I will ever get an opportunity to be back with these excellent people again. Alas! It happened. As I was reaching back, I got the news. The news was like millions of roses showered on me. I was with my fiancée at the time when this news came to me. I have very few words to describe, how we both felt. It was the most pleasant surprise.

Looking towards joining you guys again...

Ashish

As days close in...

Well, someone closest to my heart always asks, "Aren't you anxious?". Well truly, now I am getting really anxious. I don't know how anxious she is, but she must be enjoying this time, before she plunges into shopping excesses for herself. My tryst with my destiny brought me close to this wonderful girl, however, I ask myself, "Am I really ready for the plunge?". The answer comes from deep within my heart. It says, "Yes!". Even though I am anxious, even though my nerves are breaking down, but deep within me I know that the paradise is near. She hasn't promised me the paradise, but surely I know that she would take me to one. It has been a slow and painful affair of getting to know the bits and pieces of how to keep a relationship alive. She hugs me tightly to make me comfortable, and to know that I am not alone. Long have been these 10 months of knowing her, now apart from getting anxious, I am getting impatient. Geez, love does confuse you. And surely guys, I am confused! I love it that I love her, although she says that "She hates me, that she loves me!"...

Have we Indians forgotten our friends?

Ability to demonstrate - India's abilities in 1960-70 and subsequently 1971, the great Liberation War
We Indians have somehow lost the way. We know that our hatred against ethnic minorities sparked up by unscruplous politicians and the ethnic divide created by these same politicians is keeping us away from the long built friendships along our borders. Bangladesh, as we all know was liberated from the clutches of a maniacal Pakistan in 1971 after it suffered atrocities that were never seen. The worse than Nazi holocaust, the Paki holocaust was even more atrocious. Perhaps, it was the first time that Indians understood, that friends needed to be made. Sheikh Mujibur Rehman was the man. Indians created a bridge for Bengalis and a new nation was created in 1971, Bangladesh. Bengalis, welcomed our troops on their land. We had liberated them. They saw us as a friend who lent out a helping hand in getting their country out of disasters that they faced in the holocaust. Bengalis, Hindu or Muslim are our friends. The holocaust was not only for Hindus, but it was for Muslims also. Every Bengali suffered, in the hands of Pakis.
But what we did after that is unforgiving. We, Indians, forgot Bangladesh. The country became our long lost friend. Now its soil is again used by Pakis. Pehaps, our foreign policy needs a revival in the Sub-Continent. The iron-fist achieved in 70s and 80s need to be revived. Bangladesh and other countries like Sri Lanka, Nepal and Bhutan have to be reattached to India's friendship again. The more these countries are in turmoil, the worse it becomes as Paki terrorist find easy to launch attacks out of them.

Inability to hold fort - Sri Lanka (The worst form of Terrorism)
Sri Lanka's situation should be appalling for India also. Apart from our Tamil brothers dying, our friends in Lanka are also getting killed. Innumerous suicide bombings and some of the worst atrocities. Sri Lanka is a state of constant chaos. Lanka is a heaven on earth with its natural beauty and obviously peace loving people. But why on earth did IPKF go to Lanka? This question still baffles me. If I was a soldier in IPKF, I would have thought not to fire at my own Tamil brothers. I would have rather mediated to get the problem resolved, as it involved our own people. Everybody has a right to live. Pakis, mistreated this right in 1971 Bangladesh and they suffered a humiliating defeat in the hands of Mukti Bahini of Bangladesh with Indian soldiers marching by their side. Sri Lanka is different. It is not just a matter of rights, Lankans are not atrocious like the Pakis were. The matter is now being mediated by Norway which makes no sense. Is our MEA sleeping?

The worst MEA Policy - Nepal
With Prachanda coming to power, it was a clear defeat for MEA. Nepal's ability to remain India's friend is now a big question. Instead of helping its neighbour and the most sturdy friend Nepal in keeping her democracy alive, India let loose a reign of Monarchy in Nepal. Nepal was pushed back 500 years and India's External Affairs Policy sank to the bottom of Bay of Bengal. Prachanda coming to power is just a revive of what was seen in China and Mao. It is appalling that India has such a bad External Affairs Policy. We are too engrossed in Pakis that we are forgetting our friends in SAARC. Now these countries are used as bases by these Paki Terrorists to launch attacks against India.

Second Lesson For Pakis
I think it is time that India does it again to Pakis which it did in 1971. But perhaps now further breakup of the country might not be possible (because it is already in tatters). India can destabilize Pakis completely by International pressure and slowly draining resources towards anti Paki elements. It is a bull-shit that a stable Pak is needed for India's security. But it is a well know fact that peace will come only after a brief and quick period of chaos. To bring this chaos however, it is necessary to set the stage up for by smaller fiascos, what was so brilliantly done in 1971 for creation of Bangladesh. As more Pakis fall into disaster, more Western and India will be willing to destroy it out to hell. Already Pakis have gone bankrupt and as they were living on the scraps thrown by US dries out, they will further fall into chaos. Everyone knows, be it terrorism or military, it runs on food and resources. No one can be a fanatic with empty stomach. Slowly push Pakis into stone age. Recapture and secure their rogue nuclear capabilities. Land-lock them with US on one side and India on other. Perhaps their abilities will wither out and with a bang they can be completely routed out. Muslims, should know that it is not a war against them but a war against the perpetrators of same religion - Pakistan. Pakistan is not an Islamic state, but a rogue state. They committed crimes against Islam during 1971 war, and they are still doing it. My hate as an Indian is clear against Pakistan. But by pointing out my friends in other nations surrounding me, I shall nevel forget that these friends will stand with me, when we finally blow a nail onto Pakistan's coffin with US and other Western Forces on Pakis western borders. After destroying Pakis, perhaps finally world will be in peace. As Pakis are the worst human beings on this planet right now.

A word to liberal Pakis - Collaborate with us, so that these evil doers can be vanquished and you can achieve what is really Pak (Pure).

Doomsday prophecy 2012 - A clear indication of "Rule by Fear"

All that I see in Television Sets, and to be specific, our so called news channels, talking about one date - 21/Dec/2012. Now I will remove the curtains from these so called prediction. If I speak of this world, I can divide it into the following civilizations -
1. The Americans - Aztecs, Inca, Maya
2. Europeans - Christianity
3. Asians - Chinese, India (Hindus), Muslims (Followers of Islam)
4. The West Asians - Jews, Christians and Islam
Now getting back to the point. Where has all this prediction come from. The answer is - From the Mayans and the Christian prophecy tales. Surprisingly, nothing comes from the followers of Islam, Hinduism or Buddhism. I would answer this in my own way, and the disclaimer is that, these are my opinion and I do not let any religion or section of society down by saying so. Christianity, in its all sense is a major religion and the followers of Christianity and the old book are zealous for their religion. But I must point out that Christianity in its earlier days faced a severe problem of non-believers. Thus, the Pope's ability to control non-believers was in question. The earlier preachers of Christ himself were able to spread his word effectively, but after they left for their heavenly bode, Christianity suffered for a long time. Even the believers will agree to me. So how to make a religion spread? The answer is simple. To make people believe in you, you should show them some darkness, so that they immediately seek the small candle you hold. Other way of Christianity was the way of "Fear". Raise fear and superstition in people so that they can be brainwashed easily. These prophecies are now rising again. And guess what lot of people are making money again. The writers whose books were not selling. The priests who were languishing with no work, and even our news channels who were not having any viewers are seeing viewership trickling into their channels.

About Mayans, I would say, that they were not different. Like Aztecs, they ruled by fear and anger. They were immensely great scientists. But think of this. If I say - "The Earth will be in line with Sun and the galactic center on 12/21/2012", no one will listen. And if I say - "The world will come to an end on 12/21/2012", everyone will twitch their ears and clean them up to listen. The Mayan calender is a circular mechanically seen calender. It ended on 12/21/2012 because beyond it there was no space. They would have been building a new one for continuum. But unfortunately their civilization fell too early.

Coming to Hindus, Muslims and Buddhists. Everyone, knows that the greatest of scientific, mathematical and social discoveries came from these parts. So how come we don't have such a theory ever. We too have seen calamities and in fact for Hindus, this is the 4th Age - Kalyug. Why not any predictions here. In Hinduism, Islam and Buddhism, more stress is on way of life. You make a good human being if you are good and purity comes from the heart. I am not saying that there are no money makers, what I am saying is that the darkness of making money through showing fear is absent here.

My humble request to all who see this hoax and creators of hoax. Please do not buy their books and don't see their shows. They are just trying to get a large pie out of our flesh and will blot your mind with fear forever. And when 12/21/2012 will pass away, you will realize what a fool you were and these people will be happily spending your money in vacationing in exotic locations. Also a word of caution to news channels - Stop this spreading of superstitions.

Why are Bolly and Tamil biggies in such a rush to plagiarize???

I ask this question again and again and again and I end up with no answers. Why is Indian cinema in such a lack of ideas. Ghazini is no different than others. If anyone has seen the Christopher Nolan's classic Memento, he/she will say so. So what is new in Ghazini. I hear the plot is invariably different as it is Indianized. But tell me sir one small point here. First a Tamil director creates havoc by shamelessly lifting the concept from Memento and not giving credit to the actual script. Then Mr. Amir Khan joins in the party. This is shameless acts by Bollywood cinema. They have lost their minds. Let me just write out the script of Memento, probably then people will very well understand the concept of plagiarization and how Hindi and Tamil cinema have been in fore-ront of copying ideas without giving credits.
"Memento" - The story is about a guy named "Lanny" for most part of the movie. He was an insurance agent whose wife is raped and murdered and he is left with an injury which results in short term memory loss. He remembers everything before the accident but now he has short term memory. Chris Nolan has tremendously worked on this movie which is evident because it keeps you hooked to the notes "Lanny" writes to remember even the smallest of things he sees and also the polaroid pics he takes to remember things like where he lives, which is his car etc. It also shows the immense grudge he has for John G. Gammel, who is supposedly his wife's murderer. But as the story unwinds through and through a variety of flashbacks and cut-scenes you will come to know actually what had happened and what Lanny had done and achieved.
Now Ghazini or the Tamil Movie's plot is a little twisted. The question is why?
1. Is it because we Indians do not have the intellectual capability to handle such a complex subject? If this is so, then I feel so sorry for both Hindi and Tamil directors. We have far more complex thinking and analytical ability to make out such subjects. The answer was evident when an American friend of mine called me up to understand the plot and later he said that he made a bunch of others understand the concept. Here in IIT Kharagpur, I found not a single person who couldn't make out the meanig of Memento. (The english was however, a little overboard, it was too americanized)
2. Is it because they themselves cannot handle such a subject? The answer for this is a big "YES". These directors have slowly become copy experts. Why? The answer is simple over the past few decades of incessant copying they have achieved masters degree in doing so. Now they change and tinge the plot a little here and a little there, to make themselves comfortable. Then, they plague it by saying it is "INDIANIZED". Come-on grow up. They are thinking that we are fools.
I shall continue stripping these so called good directors for making Hollywood remakes in Hindi or Tamil cinema. They are a disgrace and are making the world laugh over us, for our lack of creativity. I am so sorry that Amir Khan adds up to the list. He was so good in making movies like Lagaan and TZP. Now I think he needs a stick up his a**.
Comments are welcome, specially from Tamil guys who think highly of that movie, because I feel it is a terrible low...

Thanks to Reliance :)

Well if I speak of my mobile bill... hehehehe :D, it would have crossed 4-5K every month if there was not this savior. Reliance came up with the plan 495, which provides unlimited STD to other RIM numbers. Luckily someone on the other side also has this connection. It has helped both of us to remain connected seamlessly without interference and without worries of bloating bills. Her bills to have fallen down, thanks to Reliance. Ab itna chuna laga chuke hain to Reliance that it is uncountable. We speak on an average 4-6 hours everyday. Thus, with 1 Re. calls this would count to - 5x60 = Rs. 300 everyday. Multiply it with 30. Rs.300x30 = Rs.9000. Hahaha.... now what do we pay - Rs.495/-. Gross savings man. Higher benefits are that you don't have to worry about bills, but yes, you do have to remember the date of payment. If it lapses, you will not be able to make calls ;). This keeps my love to be merrier and happier as I am available at all times for her :).

Rock On - Rocks

Well, I waited for such a movie to come out from many years and Abhishek Kapoor has done it... I was a bit unlucky that I have office on Friday and I wasn't able to take a leave, else I would have seen 1st day 1st show... However, I will see it on Saturday that's tomorrow 30th August 2008. The reviews of the movie are awesome... with 4 star rating probably it will be the best movie of 2008 ... undoubtedly... I liked DCH so much that I have its DVD and see it almost everytime I get time... Farhan is a genius.... He has truly changed the way we watch movies... It was his efforts that now we get movies like Jaane Tu... and very teen and young movies, which you can enjoy and be full of joy...

Thus, ROCK ON...

Refreshing new music - Rock On!

I had always been a great admirer of rock music. Starting from the era of Rock and Roll with "The Doors - Jim Morrison" to the new age singers such as "Poets of the Fall". I have followed rock music with all its variety. Be it "Metallica" or "Guns N Roses". One thing I always wondered was that why such music is absent in India...

Then came - Parikrama and Indian Ocean. Well to be truthful they were more into fusion music than core rock music. Then came an array of Pakistani singers with their six strings. But they were more pop cultured music than rock music. With their Sufi touch they have improved the quality of guitaring in India. But something was missing and there was a gap in the music industry regarding rock.

The A.R. Rehman Era begins...
With his excellent work in Rang de Basanti for the song "Rubaroo" he made a glance towards rock music. But still the exact string match was not there. Rock is all about storytelling by grace of voice and strings combined together. It is not excellent singing but excellent storytelling. What lacked in Hindi cinema music was the concept.

SEL (Shankar Ehsaan Loy) hit the chord...
Now comes "Rock On!" and the era has begun. I seriously believe it as a benchmark for all Rock lovers who were craving to hear the classic+alternate mix in hindi singing. Farhan is a greatly talented man. I admire him for giving movies like DCH and Lakshya. But now I give him a "God" status. All rock fans in India will certainly like his attempt at Rock. Perhaps Abhishek Kapoor never expected such a fan following in these few days of his revelation of Rock On. They depict a culture in youth which was hardly captured. Youth were always shown running after skimpily clad girls which had always made me think - "Hey that was not what, when we were in college with our 3/4s and guitars/flutes/drums etc..."

Songs in a row:
1. Rock On "Title Track" - Simply fantastic with its words to bring out people to sway to the rythm.
2. Pichle saat dinon mein - Farhan at his best and a wonderful video to go with. The storytelling at its best.
3. Socha Hai - Very thought provoking by Farhan again. The video is fantastic...
4. Sindbad the sailor - Should have been put as the song for Indian Olympic contingent. It pushes the youth to achieve dreams that are considered impossible...
5. Tum ho to - Soft rock, fantastically derived and composed
6. Zehreelay - Very hard and amazingly sung
7. Yeh tumhari meri baatein - Very beautiful track, though not rock

The movie trailer has some creatively selected one on one talks between young budding rockstars. Simply awesome!

Arjun Rampal looks awesome in his depiction with those flowing hair like "Kurt Cobain"

Kudos to Rock On team! Looking forward to see the movie... :)

Vijender, Jitender and Akhil at their best

Well frankly speaking, when the Olympics began I was as usual cynical about performance of Indian contingent. But I was proved wrong, and I am happy that was the case. When these three pugilists began their journey to glory I was busy sipping away coffee at the CCD. Then the first news of our boys entering the tantalizing zone of medals, my eyes were lit with hope. The way Akhil smacked his opponent towards no contest showed the courage of Indians at the big stage. I had tears in my eyes because I know how they must have achieved this. Probably without any help from our thankless agencies, they had only one thing in mind - "The Indian Flag". It should always fly high. Abhinav's feat must have started the frenzy to its maximum, but these boys had shown what others couldn't over these many years.

Olympics is a big stage, and success at this stage boosts the morale of our countrymen. Perhaps it is time that we join hands and show our younger generations the path to glory for India.

"Bharat Maata ki Jai!!!!"

Let the tricolor be at the helm...

Sorry state of affairs

I must admit that I was once a great admirer of Delhi and its adjoint areas for all its goodness. But lately things are changing and the change is in a negative slide. I was particularly happy the day I got selected in a premier MNC at Gurgaon as a management trainee. Finally it seems I will be out of Kharagpur :). No offenses, but Kharagpur in particular has a very slow paced life, which is not meant for a guy who is from Delhi. I have seen good and bad days of Delhi from past 25 years of my life here in this great city. But the degradation and massive destruction of local infrastructure has led me to think otherwise. Jolting around in the city I see everything so blurry and "creatively" damaged. Places which were once revered have now vanished in rubbles of mindless construction. Construction, when it all began, was seen as a great step towards development. But as things go haywire, they leave behind nothing but more and more anguish.

So let me begin with the frustrated bashing of Delhi and specially Gurgaon...

The myth of millennium city "Gurgaon"

"These are not potholes on roads, but roads in potholes"
If you see the roads in Gurgaon you will say that this is hell on earth. Electronic City is where I work and this place is the most badly hit. There were roads which have converted into ditches of death. Not a single day goes without an accident because of these roads. I gather some old opinions about these roads and found that when these roads were made a year back they were shining jewels of the city. But I guess all that glitters is not gold. The roads have vanished and all that is left are potholes.
The road in front of Maruti Udyog is particularly the one in discussion. When it rains, the roads get waterlogged till waist height. Think how cars could drive into these and forget about the bikers. The roads are non existent. Only one rainy season has exposed how the Govt. of Haryana has scandalized the construction of these roads. Perhaps it is time that we put forth an RTI regarding this.

"Water water everywhere, and if you don't know swimming, how can you survive here?"
Delhi or Gurgaon are particularly dry places in India, so how come we have floods here. Answer is simple. "Failed civic amenities!". The drains are clogged and civic authorities do not care to clean or open them up. So much construction at all places has made the matter even worse. Take for example the straight road from TCS, ASF Center towards the toll road. Every rain brings out the watery chasm of Gurgaon. Cars, bikes, buses and life comes to a standstill. And every time you will wonder "why in this whole world I came to this place?". Now even I wonder why these corporate houses have chosen Gurgaon. To be truthful, this place is worst for any corporate house. It is extremely bad in its civic amenities. And think about the corporate clients who come in. What would they think, after seeing all this?

"Insensitive people with their vehicles of doom!"
Traffic... Ha... it is something that every Delhiwaala cries foul about. But when it comes to driving on wrong side and blocking of traffic, no one lags behind. Guys, we are responsible for all this mess and we should take responsibility and act in a better way. It seems in this city everyone is in a hurry... But the good old saying "Jaldi ka kaam shaitan ka! Aur shaitan ka hasr hamesha bura!" holds true. These are the same people who end up being late themselves and end up creating havoc on roads. Inexistent traffic policing adds to the woes. The traffic policemen are the most inefficient and ineffective people handling the traffic flow. They are ill-trained and have no idea about controlling traffic.

I shall continue with this bashing...

10 Days of Complete Madness

Ten Days of Complete Madness

Well I look back to year 2000-2004, the rat race years of my life and then I look to three years of bliss 2004-2007, I am just astonished with the amount of madness in the way. Well, sleepless nights and cram-out days are just a part of this 12 month MBA at VGSOM. Well, everybody seems to be counting days and finally the day on which they will move out of here. But there is just one little problem. There is an exam in between which perhaps everyone overlooked. Running on an overdose of caffeine it seems that this has become a norm altogether. But none the less, it is fructifying into a successful career. The nights at the night canteen and the cursing if it is closed and then blaming the system altogether. Then picking up our bicycles to go to LLR or the Veggies to get a cup of tea to survive the night, well it has become a daily duty. Then pushing up the laptop lids to find out what music we used to hear, and it seems a long time back that the music hit our ears. The back breaking schedule is actually rewinding my thoughts back to the years in which I was a part of the student community. Soon we will be out of it. I guess it happens, I'll miss these sleepless days in coming years.

Two Steps Behind.........

Two Steps Behind

This is one song that I am very fond of. In fact this was the same song that brought the one I love a lot closer to me because she understood that this fool is actually a guy who is able to make out even the smallest of tears that rolls down her cheek, the smallest smile she gives in anticipation, the smallest word she speaks in hope of trust and the smallest touch she expects from me. I say that I'll always be two steps behind, but now I'll be just beside her, I know I have earned that place beside her. I am happy that after days now, she has started trusting me. "But we still have a long way to go", she says, but at the same time, she dreams of the beautiful days that are ahead of us. She leaned onto my shoulder and made me the happiest man in this world. She smiled when I said "I Love You!", and she made me feel the world in all its beauty. She translated her feeling onto a beautiful card and compiled all my thoughts and made it straight to my heart. She is my sweet chocolate pudding. She is the one I love, and now jaan, I won't be two steps behind anymore, I am there beside you and you shall she that this fool will never leave that spot, it is something I got after a long wait.

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About Her - A Bit in Detail

Never in my dreams I had thought that I would meet someone so perfectly made for me. She is perfect because she is made to be perfect. All these years, where was she hiding, I am just wondering that. Well now since I have described her physically and also described a bit of her inner emotions, I shall go ahead with a bit more than the usual. All these days of talking to her has made me realize a few things, which are nothing out of the box but they are bound to be important. So here we go...

=> She is someone who loves attention but hates too much attention. She likes to be the centerstage of a discussion, but if it goes overhead she makes for the exit door immediately. Sort of nice idea isn't it. She is typically different from other girls because she can make out when someone is flattering her and when someone is actually telling a truth. In fact she has been catching my flattering perfectly (:P)

=> She likes hearing me, and I am surprised. She is a patient listener and quite patient with the overtalker like me. I speak too much when I am on phone because I am too impatient. But in front of her I just go mum because I cannot take my eyes off her. She is so beautiful.

=> She loves being with few people who give her full attention and specially people who do not wander away. Jaan, I might have been a wanderer, but I am like you only, if I have come close to you, I will never ever leave you, neither I am going to let you wander off.

=> She is a wanderer herself, always in look out for the wackiest things and loveliest times.

=> She is impatient ("Well Sorry Jaan" -> You'll say this is an easy guess (:P) )

=> She waits for people to say that they love her, but will not wait if she feels that this is the right guy. She held me tightly and I, in my all dreams wanted someone to do that.

=> She can really make people comfortable with her, but if they do not understand her completely, she might get turned off and remain turned off to these people for long time.

=> She depends for things and decisions, somehow thinks collectively about decisions. Jaan I ask you to take decisions for me, but I too will make it a collective decision in the end.

=> She doesn't like being bossed around and likes doing the work her way.

=> She is dedicated and if something is assigned to her it goes till the end with her dedication. Also if someone criticizes she might be perturbed but she goes back and gives that criticism a second thought almost always. I mean to say - "Why is this guy/gal criticizing me? Is he right? If he is wrong shall I confront him or let him go? Shall I ask Ashish about this? I will ask Ashish and then we both will take a decision..." Correct me if I am wrong jaan.

=> She loves whatever she possesses and hates it when it goes missing or if it is broken.

=> She can be really very possessive about me and I can be really possessive about her. I am made for her only and I know she is for my love and my life.

=> She hates it when I go onto tangents and loves my weird, stupid self... Well she is taking time, but soon will realize that "Ashish" has to be treated as a kid many times, and he can treat her like a kid also. You also like being treated like a kid. You want to be naughty at times, fidgety at times, and really very kiddish at times. And you take your opportunities to do that. You are not always kiddy, but you seek the opportunity.

I'll write more about her ...

I Love You... Love You a Lot... Love You my Life...

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Tak Bisakah

The Lyrics that really touch your heart - Hats off to Peterpan

Tak Bisakah Hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu Selalu s'lalu dalam hatiku Ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu Selalu kau didalam hatiku Ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu Berharap temukan sisa hatimu Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu Mengerti kau didalam hatiku Tak bisakah kau menungguku Hingga nanti tetap menunggu Tak bisakah kau menuntunku Menemani dalam hidupku Ku berjalan-berjalan memutar waktu Berharap temukan sisa hatimu Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu Mengerti kau didalam hatiku Dara kau menjadi hidupku Kemana kau tau isi hatiku Tunggu sejenak aku disitu Jalanku jalan menemukanmu Tak bisakah kau menungguku Hingga nanti tetap menunggu Tak bisakah kau menuntunku Menemani dalam hidupku

Can't you? My heart is unsure, yet I still think of you Always always in my heart No matter how far I walk Always, you're in my heart I took a stroll, turns back the time Hoping to find the remains of your heart Please understand that I want you Understand that you're in my heart Can't you wait for me Until later on still waiting Can’t you be my guide Accompany me in my life I took a stroll, turning back the time Hoping to find the remains of your heart Please understand that I want you Understand that you're in my heart Girl, you have become my life Where, you know what's in my heart Wait for me for a moment there The path I walk will lead me to you Can't you wait for me Until later on still waiting Can’t you be my guide Accompany me in my life

The Lyrics above by Peterpan as an OST for the movie "Alexandria" touched my heart. Though badly plagiarized for the hindi song "Kya Mujhe Pyaar Hai", the original lyrics are much more beautiful and Peterpan immortalizes the same with his excellent string work and an amazing voice.

The movie's sequence reminds me of my older days when I used to be so introverted to express my feelings that every time I fell into the trap of my own heart to realize that the roses in my hands have turned into dust and fallen into the grave of my own feelings. I have lived with this ever since. Time after time, day after day and year after year, the stories got repeated and I grew tired of my own emotions and thought of burying them altogether. But perhaps it was not to happen. I found love in the most unusual way. Unusual because I am never like this. It took me 15 minutes to understand my feelings and just 2 days to express them and not 2 years like before. I am happy I did it. It hurts if you keep things to yourself. Let the emotions flow like a river, don't contain it. Containing it hurts and becomes a stinking pool of water of no use. Water you cannot even throw away. The reality is that this time I wanted the roses in my hands to remain roses and not turn into dust. I could have sung this song 2 years back, but I believe that the happiness in my life today, doesn't ask for it.

So my suggestion to all you guys and gals in love -- "Do not waste time in making your mind if you are really in love, time slips very quickly, so make the person in front of you realize your emotions as soon as possible!"

Girls cannot explain, it is a guys job to take the first step. So guys make sure you do not let the girl you love fly away and later regret for it....

And here is the Hindi Version "Kya Mujhe Pyaar Hai!" - Somehow Enjoyable

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Raju Guide Explored

The 1960s classic movie "Guide" starring Dev Anand and Waheeda Rehman is by far my all time best movie. The movie in itself is a masterpiece by Vijay Anand. They immortalized the relationship between a man and a woman beyond marriage and social obligations, which is a big thing in India still today. The movie setting is very charming, the choice of colors and the locations. In 1965 Bollywood was not that rich as today. But they still managed to dramaticize the whole sequence in the most pristine way. Ahead of its time and can still be watched by millions and these millions will be glued to their seats.

The movie starts with Raju Guide coming out of jail and sees a sign post towards Anjanpur "his city" and the song "Wahan Kaun hai Tera" (Who is there for you?) plays. It sets the mode of the movie.

Watch the song on Youtube

This takes our hero out on a journey. The journey of Raju Guide Begins...

I shall write in subsequent posts. --> do watch the movie....

The Sacred Heart

Everytime I speak of heart, my heart is the one which makes me realize that the pureness is from within. Breaking a heart is a sin. I have been somewhat a aloof person, who always thought someone broke my heart. But then I realized it is me only who is responsible for it. So why am I cursing others. It is a crime to curse others for your own crimes. And I am becoming more and more criminal. I found the same with one I am in love with. She too has gone through a bad patch like me. Somewhat similar stories. We came closer because we thought in the same way. We kept on pulling ourselves down and when we came face to face with each other we both realized that if we are together, then we can climb this rickety ladder of life much easily because we will be looking out for each other. In our relationships we both found that we are at the receiving end. Time changed me, time has changed her too. We both evolved in the same way and that is why I think that we both reciprocate to each other well. There will be disagreements but I believe that if we both work together they can be solved easily and maturely. And I have full faith in her abilities of understanding me.

She has a Sacred Heart which is pure...

Love You Jaan...

The 4 days of Life

I cannot recall many days in which I have been happy but I can surely recall the 4 days I was with the one with whom I fell in love. I have no words to describe her, and I intend to do it here. It seems a impossible task but I can surely try.

She is a pretty girl with whom you talk, you'll very soon realize that she is in fact a very mature woman and not a girl. Amazing, because same is said about me. She is soft and tender by nature, but I know that she can be strong willed as well. "It all depends on situations", she says, I agree to it. Perhaps a stoned guy like me who has emotions which are deeply buried she is a big surprise. She is an image of me, this makes me very satisfied. I always searched for my life partner to be similar in thoughts and action. She has astonished me with her similarities to me. Her tastes and likings too match with those of mine. Well, on the counterpart, she is an artist and I am a methodical engineer. There is the only difference here.

The question I always ask myself is that "How did I fall in love with this gorgeous and wonderful girl?". And don't want to answer this question because I don't want to find reasons in this. She is the right one, and one and only one. The day I first talked to her, I felt an urge to get closer to her. And she gave me the "Yes" I was so eagerly waiting for. I just can't stop thanking her for this. But as it is said, in Love there is no thankfulness and there are no apologies, because me and her are now one unit, so whom am I thanking to. I'll be saying "Sorry" and "Thank You" to myself, which makes no sense. Rather than words, her eyes and her beautiful face shall describe her feelings. I caught her feelings and she appreciated it, and she is making me happiest person in this world by letting me be myself.

Now I shall describe her. Hmm.... well it is not a difficult task, but choice of words is extremely important. She stands tall enough to cross over my shoulders and has got Venus's blessing in her figure. Has the most beautiful smile I have ever seen. Her eyes are deep and very contemplative, something very similar to mine. Her hands are soft and very petit. She has this most descriptive faces, thus, you can immediately notice emotions. She is impatient for me :P. Well that's good, I have gone to the heights of desperation for her. But this wait I hope doesn't kill me. The day I held her hands I realized how much caring she can be. She pulled me around so that I am not a roadkill. I have always been sensitive and concious of girls touching me, but she made me absolutely confortable. This was again a surprise for me. I hope I turn out to be the one who would never make her cry and if she cries, I'll be there to wipe off her sadness. She looks good only when she is smiling or laughing. She somewhat talks like me, it fascinates me because if we are a couple, people will be amazed how similarly we think.

Now to the Chennai part...
Those 4 days were the most beautiful days of my life. We went around and very quickly came near to each other. Everytime I think of relationships, it took me gross number of days to fit in, and then I fitted out, because nothing worked well. She was different, it was the most smooth transition into Love and I am happy she is the one to help me. The second day I held her hands and immediately came to realize "Oh Man she is so soft and tender! And I am like a rocky hard rough and tough guy!" Well I was a little afraid that she is not hurt, but she liked the warmth of my hands. And from third day, I was unable to let her hands go off mine. She is very soothingly soft. She is afraid of blood and look at me, dozens of accidents, broken legs, hands, bruised body and what not. But I know, if I will be strong, she will grow strong with me. That is the beauty of it. She is looking for a support and I know that. My will power is a major thing in our relationship. She has a tendency of falling over for support, which I very soon realized in my 4 days stay. And I am happy to be that man.

"Don't you worry jaan, just keep your patience and pray for us... I'll take you away soon, but we have to keep patience, and let the storm come if there is any, I've the outworldly courage to fight and survive it, if you are with me..."

I Love Her, and I am Happy that I found the Right Person...

My Rendezvous with Life

Here and Back Again, the Hobbit Bilbo Baggins said when he returned home to Shire at the Bag End. Somehow my life has been quite similar to the Hobbit's adventure. He experimented with adventure. I experimented with life. To begin the tale of dynamism in relationships which I have seen I must put somethings in context first. I am a pseudo-modern personality and have a high degree of acceptance in relationships. Thus, guys don't take me wrongly or interpret this as a fallacy of broken minds.

It was the year 1998. I was 16 years old. In fact too young to fall in love. But not too old to not appreciate it :P. Thus, first came the lady of light. She entered my life in the most unusual way. We were very good childhood friends as we were in same class, but I never felt for her, and considered her always as a good friend. It was only when one of my very good friends broke the silence. We were in a lab class when he said the "The Girl I am talking about" was pretty close to me, so please help me get near her. Well my head spinned off and that was the first time I realized that what infatuation means. But day after day I helped him, god only knows why. She was aware of me and had some idea as well. But I kept an uneasy distance. Finally in 2000 when we were departing from the school, it was the day when I first made somethings clear about us. I acted as a monk for the first time. I released everything from my hands. The obsession of her, the presence of her, everything was gone in a second.

Year 1999, along came the sequence of monthly heartbreaks. I came to know another person in my class in school. She was close, but I again treated her like a friend. God help me, at that time I was such a moron, I was not able to see into people's hearts at all. On the same day in 2000 as I described earlier, I let the birds fly. I started fresh.

Year 1999, in my coaching center, the person I came across was a very unusually enchanted in her own happiness of being a girl turning into woman. She was the first who actually reciprocated to me. We used to sit together and do assignments and problems together. Somehow we both had a knack of solving problems in the same way. The first person I really appreciated and in fact the only person I would take name of in this blog. Her name was Surabhi. I appreciated her a lot because she was peculiarly similar to me. But I had no stomach for more heartbreaks or even I was afraid of relationships. This was the glass window between me and her. She came into DCE and I was in NSIT. But never had a contact with her since 2000.

Along came the 4 year drought. It was my 4 years of Engineering at NSIT where I had no relationships whatsoever. It was a mad rush to achieve. I became a part of the rat race. Just kept cramming and kept myself alive. I lost a lot of my artistic touches and became a very absurdly methodical man. Year 2003, a person from my own college came a bit near to me. But she realized how shrewdly I was twisted and how unscruplously I was methodical. She was not able to stomach it and she vanished. Well it was better that she did go away. We had nothing in common.

The bliss begins again. Year 2004, June 14th, the day on which I felt what good friends are. Sandeep Chanani, Vinu, Vishy, Waddy, Lalu, Ritesh, Kunal, Chandralekha, Ashma, Sridevi, Pons, Bidya, Kalindi, Akshay ... I can just take almost all the 152 names. We were such a big unit and such a closely knit one. We were one, and we are still in touch, it makes me really happy that I made such good friends. And for the first time I realized the true meaning of friends.

5th Street, BTM Stage II, Bangalore ...
Vishy, Lalu and Waddy.... My room partners and me. We were the fantastic four. Always together and always looking out for each other. Vinu visited us and we went around almost everywhere in Bangalore together. Those are the best days of my life. June 14th 2004 to August 11th 2004.

August 16th, 2004 Chandigarh, Infosys Tech. Ltd., B-100, Industrial Area, Mohali, Phase VIII
Can never in my life, forget this address. Nor can I forget my flat Bunglow Number 3528, Sector 71 Mohali. I started the best 21 months of my life, where I came to know almost the most wide array of people. Their ideas, their likings, everything made me curious and also happy.

Year 2005, the most happening year in my life.
Came across, Kunal, Sanju, Ritesh, Namita, Anchal, Gunjan, Avneesh, Atul, Amit Kumar, Rajwanshi, Rahul, Nitin, Abhinav, Shilpa, Neeti and many... I was so happy to see them around me. Always knowing that Ashish is the guy who can really help and I am the one who is always ready for any outworldly help they want. I met my first love in 2005 "My Car" Santro XL ERlx. It opened the world for me. July 12th 2005, I fell in love with her (My Car). And I still love her and miss her a lot. But she misses someone in the front seat beside me. I wondered who that person is going to be, and always thought that when I waved my hands across the seat in anticipation. I found the real me in Chandigarh. This was what I am and I am a happy man ever since. I stopped a moment about realtionships. It was such a load, rather friends make me a merrier person. But I still craved for a soul-mate. Never was able to find one.

Year 2006 March 17th, The departure from Chandigarh
My new life started again in New Delhi, back to home and back to the person who loves me most - My Mom. Here I found Anurag, Pallavi, Priti, Jain Sahab, Ashish Garg, my PM Mr. Sukant, Shahnawaz, Amit Kumar again, Neeti again, Vineet, Jeeten, Josh Machine Naveen and many more... I was so happy that I am here and back again... No to relationships again :P.

Year 2007 June14th, The departure again...
Nothing was better, in IIT Kgp for MBA, a dream come true. This was the day I started thinking seriously about relationships and started my frantic search for the right person who will join beside me in 2009.

Year 2008 24th Feb and then March 5th to March 10th in Chennai...
The one I was looking for came as a cool breeze and settled in my life. I am writing a whole column for her. So watch out for it. She was such a tremendous entry into my life that my whole focus has now been her. She is the first who really appreciated the real me. In fact like me she too dislikes dishonest people, because both of us have been scarred by such elements. Life has never been so beautiful as it is now...

Journey of 11 years ends...

About Me and Reverse Philosophy - Philosophy Turned Upside Down

Well, Reverse Philosophy defines it all, but it is always better to start fresh. I am Ashish Behera who is in the world of tyrannical preaching of good living through alternate middle path, which took me years to comprehend and understand. Like all good things in life, we guys, most of the times behave like imbiciles and I am no different. I changed over a long period of 8 years since I achieved adulthood. It was frantic experimentations with life that taught me the virtue of life itself.

So what is Reverse Philosophy? To sum it up it is a way of alternate living. Without bondages and bandages. People who read this have to be really analytical to make out the words :-). Anyhow I'll not get more cryptic. Reverse Philosophy is my way of interpreting this world which has been meandering like a river. I see things very straight so make no mistakes that I commit mistakes. But I can take lessons from life and wake up for the next morning's call to apologize in no time. Thus, Reverse Philosophy for me is to understand yourself completely first. Learn about yourself, what you are, how you are and why you are. These three questions if asked in depth will certainly open the pandoras box. I don't keep anything hidden as secrets hurt if they come out late. Thus, Ashish's Philosophy aka Reverse Philosophy is a matter of self understanding.

I have a belief that if you cannot understand youself then you can never understand people around you. It is a very good art to be a duplicate self and pretending your way of life. But does it really help. It is a good thing as it gives you instant high level of satisfaction, but it is like the firefly's light. It keeps jumping and is not consistent. Fortunately, there is an alternate middle path. The path of salvation as described by Buddha himself. But he left the philosophy to be interpreted in our own ways. I did an interpretation in my own way. And finally I came out with my own version.

I was an aggressive person, perhaps that was the reason for which I am still immensely ambitious, and same is the reason for which I went relationship-less for years. People came and went away because they felt I am too much into my ownself. Then, self realization came, and uplifted me and I was surrounded, but damn my own reservations about relationships and fear of being a stupendously fabulous fool, I kept away. Thus, loss after loss, made me really concious of what wrong I was doing. I literally turned myself upside down. From tails I flipped and became heads. Now there is a wonderful person whom I am able to keep attached to me. And she too reciprocates well.

Ego is a big word for me as I never was able to understand what ego means. I ask for sorry even if I say something right, but feel that it has hurt someone. I can be really like a tree full of fruits which lowers itself down. I can ask for sorry for people, even if they hurt me. I feel for them and have full faith that they will come to know their mistakes someday or the other. It is a method of non-violence taught by Gandhiji. He applied it for our freedom, I apply it for my happiness.

Love is the most beautiful word in the English Dictionary. It encompasses life. Life without love is a barren desert and I lived in it for many years. Make sure that you don't let away people who love you. It hurts to know that they are gone.

So I shall write more. And I'll definitely share the peculiar but astonishingly beautiful finding I have in my life recently....

Ashes to Phoenix - That's me