As days close in...

Well, someone closest to my heart always asks, "Aren't you anxious?". Well truly, now I am getting really anxious. I don't know how anxious she is, but she must be enjoying this time, before she plunges into shopping excesses for herself. My tryst with my destiny brought me close to this wonderful girl, however, I ask myself, "Am I really ready for the plunge?". The answer comes from deep within my heart. It says, "Yes!". Even though I am anxious, even though my nerves are breaking down, but deep within me I know that the paradise is near. She hasn't promised me the paradise, but surely I know that she would take me to one. It has been a slow and painful affair of getting to know the bits and pieces of how to keep a relationship alive. She hugs me tightly to make me comfortable, and to know that I am not alone. Long have been these 10 months of knowing her, now apart from getting anxious, I am getting impatient. Geez, love does confuse you. And surely guys, I am confused! I love it that I love her, although she says that "She hates me, that she loves me!"...