Friday, March 28, 2008

My Rendezvous with Life

Here and Back Again, the Hobbit Bilbo Baggins said when he returned home to Shire at the Bag End. Somehow my life has been quite similar to the Hobbit's adventure. He experimented with adventure. I experimented with life. To begin the tale of dynamism in relationships which I have seen I must put somethings in context first. I am a pseudo-modern personality and have a high degree of acceptance in relationships. Thus, guys don't take me wrongly or interpret this as a fallacy of broken minds.

It was the year 1998. I was 16 years old. In fact too young to fall in love. But not too old to not appreciate it :P. Thus, first came the lady of light. She entered my life in the most unusual way. We were very good childhood friends as we were in same class, but I never felt for her, and considered her always as a good friend. It was only when one of my very good friends broke the silence. We were in a lab class when he said the "The Girl I am talking about" was pretty close to me, so please help me get near her. Well my head spinned off and that was the first time I realized that what infatuation means. But day after day I helped him, god only knows why. She was aware of me and had some idea as well. But I kept an uneasy distance. Finally in 2000 when we were departing from the school, it was the day when I first made somethings clear about us. I acted as a monk for the first time. I released everything from my hands. The obsession of her, the presence of her, everything was gone in a second.

Year 1999, along came the sequence of monthly heartbreaks. I came to know another person in my class in school. She was close, but I again treated her like a friend. God help me, at that time I was such a moron, I was not able to see into people's hearts at all. On the same day in 2000 as I described earlier, I let the birds fly. I started fresh.

Year 1999, in my coaching center, the person I came across was a very unusually enchanted in her own happiness of being a girl turning into woman. She was the first who actually reciprocated to me. We used to sit together and do assignments and problems together. Somehow we both had a knack of solving problems in the same way. The first person I really appreciated and in fact the only person I would take name of in this blog. Her name was Surabhi. I appreciated her a lot because she was peculiarly similar to me. But I had no stomach for more heartbreaks or even I was afraid of relationships. This was the glass window between me and her. She came into DCE and I was in NSIT. But never had a contact with her since 2000.

Along came the 4 year drought. It was my 4 years of Engineering at NSIT where I had no relationships whatsoever. It was a mad rush to achieve. I became a part of the rat race. Just kept cramming and kept myself alive. I lost a lot of my artistic touches and became a very absurdly methodical man. Year 2003, a person from my own college came a bit near to me. But she realized how shrewdly I was twisted and how unscruplously I was methodical. She was not able to stomach it and she vanished. Well it was better that she did go away. We had nothing in common.

The bliss begins again. Year 2004, June 14th, the day on which I felt what good friends are. Sandeep Chanani, Vinu, Vishy, Waddy, Lalu, Ritesh, Kunal, Chandralekha, Ashma, Sridevi, Pons, Bidya, Kalindi, Akshay ... I can just take almost all the 152 names. We were such a big unit and such a closely knit one. We were one, and we are still in touch, it makes me really happy that I made such good friends. And for the first time I realized the true meaning of friends.

5th Street, BTM Stage II, Bangalore ...
Vishy, Lalu and Waddy.... My room partners and me. We were the fantastic four. Always together and always looking out for each other. Vinu visited us and we went around almost everywhere in Bangalore together. Those are the best days of my life. June 14th 2004 to August 11th 2004.

August 16th, 2004 Chandigarh, Infosys Tech. Ltd., B-100, Industrial Area, Mohali, Phase VIII
Can never in my life, forget this address. Nor can I forget my flat Bunglow Number 3528, Sector 71 Mohali. I started the best 21 months of my life, where I came to know almost the most wide array of people. Their ideas, their likings, everything made me curious and also happy.

Year 2005, the most happening year in my life.
Came across, Kunal, Sanju, Ritesh, Namita, Anchal, Gunjan, Avneesh, Atul, Amit Kumar, Rajwanshi, Rahul, Nitin, Abhinav, Shilpa, Neeti and many... I was so happy to see them around me. Always knowing that Ashish is the guy who can really help and I am the one who is always ready for any outworldly help they want. I met my first love in 2005 "My Car" Santro XL ERlx. It opened the world for me. July 12th 2005, I fell in love with her (My Car). And I still love her and miss her a lot. But she misses someone in the front seat beside me. I wondered who that person is going to be, and always thought that when I waved my hands across the seat in anticipation. I found the real me in Chandigarh. This was what I am and I am a happy man ever since. I stopped a moment about realtionships. It was such a load, rather friends make me a merrier person. But I still craved for a soul-mate. Never was able to find one.

Year 2006 March 17th, The departure from Chandigarh
My new life started again in New Delhi, back to home and back to the person who loves me most - My Mom. Here I found Anurag, Pallavi, Priti, Jain Sahab, Ashish Garg, my PM Mr. Sukant, Shahnawaz, Amit Kumar again, Neeti again, Vineet, Jeeten, Josh Machine Naveen and many more... I was so happy that I am here and back again... No to relationships again :P.

Year 2007 June14th, The departure again...
Nothing was better, in IIT Kgp for MBA, a dream come true. This was the day I started thinking seriously about relationships and started my frantic search for the right person who will join beside me in 2009.

Year 2008 24th Feb and then March 5th to March 10th in Chennai...
The one I was looking for came as a cool breeze and settled in my life. I am writing a whole column for her. So watch out for it. She was such a tremendous entry into my life that my whole focus has now been her. She is the first who really appreciated the real me. In fact like me she too dislikes dishonest people, because both of us have been scarred by such elements. Life has never been so beautiful as it is now...

Journey of 11 years ends...

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